So – I had this grand plan. I was going to transfer at the end of my contract to the local Girl’s High School. It would mean only being at one school a week, with a higher caliber of students and frankly what would seem to be a better staff and relationship with said staff, if they current teacher there is any indication.
But the best laid plans of mice and men…
Rumors started to circulate a few weeks back of budget cuts heading our way. For the past few intake cycles, major cities have been cutting out native English teachers, starting from the top down taking out high school, then middle school placements. Seoul is down to elementary only. It would seem that my countryside province is not safe from these cuts either. First I heard that cuts were only in discussion, then that 30% of high school position would be cut – starting in cities and leaving the countryside alone (which I liked because the school I was aiming for is in the countryside). But the word came down today (Friday) the topper of the crappiest week that I have had in Korea: all high school positions in Gyeongbuk province are being cut.
My co-teacher hit me with this news just this morning as I came in the door, coat still on and not even at my desk yet. I was given these choices:
1) Stay at my current position. The high school would be eliminated, but an additional middle school position (from another placement that was being cut entirely) would be added, leaving me with three middle schools to teach at, but mostly everything would remain the same as it is now.
2) Move to an unknown elementary school (possibly multiple, but who really knows) position in Gumi, a decent sized city about a half hour outside of Daegu, a major city, and almost smack dab in the middle of the country.
3) Move to an unknown elementary school (possibly multiple, but who really knows) position in Pohang, a coastal city on eastern edge of Korea.
4) Go home to the States.
I was floored. My plans crumbling away before me I had to sort out what to do for the next year of my life. To be honest, moving back to America only flitted across my mind for a moment. I had already done all the math and figured everything out for staying a third year here. With an extra year, I can do all the traveling that I want to do so much easier. With an extra year, I can finish paying off all of my student loan debt and have quite a bit left to save. And frankly, to leave now feels almost like going out with my tail between my legs and I just can’t bring myself to do that.
So I spent the morning, working out pro/con lists and talking to other teachers here, and phoning a few people back home to get input. Eventually I landed on this decision: to stay where I am.
Everyone who can see my facebook is going to think I’m insane (well…more so than normal) because this week has been nothing but be railing against the stupidity of my school and tension headaches caused by me clenching my jaw shut to tight that it was creaking. But here are my reasons why, so I can have this in one place and don’t have to explain a million times:
I would be taking a pay cut to move to either of the cities. In fact, it would be a cut from my current pay rate, nevermind a cut from what I am supposed to receive after my raise that I receive for signing on for an additional year. It would be a $250/month (roughly) cut – which is more than my monthly loan payment is according to my loan servicers.
I already know the students here, the situation here, and I have grown accustomed to it. I know how to work the system here if necessary. And I have the kids worked into a system that helps everyone, the students and the teachers to keep them involved in the lesson and give them the best shot at learning something that they may actually take home with them and remember.
They cut the high school. All those students who drive me up a wall? They will be in high school next year. The co-teacher who makes me want to scream and does exactly nothing to help me teach in the classroom? Won’t have to work with him. Next year will be middle school only and frankly that is perfect.
I do not want to teach Elementary. I can do it, I have done it, but I have no desire to do so. There is a reason that I went to school to study secondary education. I do not think that I will mentally survive a year of classrooms of 30-40 elementary students. I think I would be crazy and in a madhouse before the end of first semester.
I am only looking for one more year. I will probably be going back to America after that so job security beyond the one year is not a high item on my priority list. I just need one more year and this current situation gives me that.
I don’t have to move. Part of the appeal of moving to the new school was that I would only have to get my stuff a five-minute cab ride away. Instead, I would have to convince someone to drive me and my things down to Gumi or over to Pohang and that would be far more of a hassel than I want to deal with just now. Besides, I just changed landlords and they are really nice and sweet and SPEAK ENGLISH! (*with cute New Zealand accents*) and I don’t want to leave my small town behind just yet.
All of my friends are in this town. If I move, I would once again be in a location where no one speaks my language and I know no one. And since I don’t do the bar seen, meeting new people would be doubly complicated. Where I am now, the town is so small that you meet everyone just walking down the street to do your grocery shopping.
A fear of the unknown. There is too much up in the air. I was fine with it when I was fresh off the plane and had no idea where I was going, just that a teaching job was waiting for me when I got there. But now, I have established myself here. I’ve put down a few roots here and I don’t want to give that up for something else as yet undefined.
So with my ultimatum of having a decision before the end of the school day (1:45 today because of final exams), I turned it my decision just before heading to lunch. I am staying at my location, ditching the high school and picking up a new middle school. It will not be an easy year, but it will be a year of tried and true methods of education, watching some of my students continue to improve and hopefully a meeting of many goals along the way. So that is my plan. Those are my reasons. Agree or not, it is what is happening.